I’ve recently admitted that I need to seek diagnosis for ADHD.
A constellation of things came together to make this happen, combined with a history of the predictable flow of circumstances.
We all have our moments, but mine were just a bit too consistent.
This isn’t the first time I’ve let life’s circumstances catch me out.
I was recently made aware of an essay exploring an experience of situational agency, and it kick started a process in me to see what I’d left unseen.
Another pebble landing on the pile, but it disrupted the balance and set the avalanche rolling down the hill.
I very quickly faced this wall of evidence and accepted that I needed to learn how to manage my adhd, but first that meant accepting it in my life.
Changing the lens meant reinterpreting the narratives I’d been weaving, and seeking a new understanding from my current perspective, not locking in to the emotions of a far younger and less mature version of myself.
To accept where I was standing.
To adopt the beginners mind and begin again, now, from here.
This is the game.
The only way to win is by learning,
The only way to learn is by playing,
And the only way to begin is by beginning.
So let’s begin.
-J